We’re devastated. After my sonogram and bloodwork this morning it was confirmed I ovulated early and lost all of my follicles. When the nurse called to tell us the news after we left, I was in shock. This was exactly what I was afraid of, I know my body and I felt like this was going to happen. The team informed me to “not worry” because I was taking Cetrotide to prevent that.
Both of us cried our eyes out, I’m so upset. Ovulating early during IVF stimming is extremely rare, 1% ovulate before egg retrieval. My last two IVF cycles this never happened.
That being said, hearing the news today was heartbreaking. This cycle was extremely hard emotionally, mentally and physically. The driving back and forth to Tampa everyday at 6am, getting blood drawn, injecting 6 shots daily + sonograms took a major toll on me.
I feel miserable and like a prisoner. I’m so tired. I’m tired of waiting and hoping on medications and procedures.
I don’t want my life to revolve around this system and be pumped with artificial drugs anymore. I don’t want to hate my body, I want to love my body.
Infertility is hard, it’s a battle. This platform is my voice, and even if I can help one person then maybe it’s worth it.
Lucas and I decided that we’re officially done with fertility treatments. I am going to focus on all the positives in my life. My amazing husband, my loving family, my health, my passions. Finding my happy place again. We’re putting IVF behind us.
I believe God was telling us loud and clear to LET GO AND LET ME. I heard and felt the Holy Spirit tell me this as the news settled and tears rolled down my face. We don’t understand why things like this happen. We believe Jesus intervened today to stop relying on other worldly things and 100% rely on our faith. Our story isn’t finished yet. The Lord didn’t want it for us, not this time and not this way.
Thank you everyone who prayed and lifted me up during this 3rd IVF, y’all are amazing folks and this community online is a blessing. We’re not giving up on starting a family, my heart aches for our own baby. But we’re letting treatments go, and surrendering our hearts completely to Jesus’s plan for us.
FERTILITY FINDS THAT BRING COMFORT
It’s a new day, a new week to get up and live again. I want to thank all of you who sent so much love and support for the news a few days ago about my IVF cycle 3 failing, by my body ovulating early and losing all of my follicles. It was a very hard one but today I’m starting all over again.
I think it’s important to grieve, cry and take everything in when bad news comes your way. We all have had bad news, traumatic moments and hardships: it’s what we do with it after that matters. That’s life.
This platform has always been a place where I could share my passions, tips and life with you. And I want to continue doing that, with all of my heart! Infertility takes a lot away from you, and I’ve decided to not allow that anymore. If you’re struggling with infertility you can find my story and journey on my blog + in my highlights. I’m an open book and always here to help in anyway, don’t ever hesitate to reach out.
Look out for new lifestyle content, I’m excited to get back to what I love doing full force. Home decor tips, styling, fashion, budget finds, photography, travel, eats and so much more!
You’re my people! Thank you and go make this Monday the best one you can, I know I will because God has given me so much PEACE. Please follow @andimans on instagram to receive more updated on our fertility journey.